Lots On My Mind

Yesterday Michael and I were supposed to sign divorce papers. Well a bunch of shit happened and then he pulled a disappearing act. I was so ready to get them signed and get this shit over with so I can move on with my life. It looks as if I am going to have to wait a while longer. He still is not answering the phone or responding to my text messages. It is bothering me a lot. Im pretty pissed about it and hurt at the same time. He lied to me and that was not something I expected out of him. We agreed to do this without arguing and causing trouble. Apparently he wants to do this the hard way and thats not at all what I wanted to do. Its hard enough without arguing and him acting like a child. Maybe he will respond to my messages soon. I hope so anyways cause I am ready to move on with my life and share my life with CeCe. Im so excited she is coming up here this weekend. I can't wait to see her. I gotta make up my mind where we are going to stay so she doesn't have a duck. I guess Im stressing her out because I am so indecisive. Can't help it. I have always been this way...Aunt Gail texted me this morning and wanted me to come help her with her computer...I stayed over there a while and Katie came over to see us. I came back to mommas and started cleaning. My hand is pretty swollen now since I have been using it so much today. Hard to bend it. When I get done cleaning I will put an ice pack on it and give it a rest for the night. I will be so glad when I can go back home. I do not sleep worth a shit and I think it is all catching up with me. Gonna go next week and talk to some nursing homes in New Albany. Im taking my stitches out of my hand sunday so it will all be healed so I can keep looking for a job. I seriously hate living in North Mississippi..there is never any jobs here. not for what I do anyways. It sucks. Snickers tore newspaper up all over the yard this morning...im about ready to pull her fucking teeth out of her head. I have got to catch her and tie her up and I do not want to do that...Idk how long she will be in this chewing on everything stage but she needs to fucking hurry up and get out of it...I gotta get back to cleaning so Im gonna go for now but not forever... Love You baby