Happiness

I just got done cleaning the camper. Now I am sitting here listening to one of my many Reba Cd's. All her songs somehow relate to my life and I love to listen to them. The past few weeks have been crazy at times and wonderful at times. I can feel myself finding true happiness for the first time in a long time. My life is not filled with arguing and drama. I have found a peace within. My mind still works overtime but I know in time all that will get better. But until then I am going to remain strong and live my life like I want to and do the things that make me happy. I have laughed and smiled a lot more lately. I have people in my life that truly love me and care about my happiness and I love and care about their happiness also. Without them my happiness would be gone. The girl I have fallen in love with lights up my life and makes me happier than I have been in years. She has no idea what she does to me. I hope she knows how much I do truly love her and that she never doubts that. Their are a few people that try to get in our way of having our relationship but Im not going to let nothing tear us apart. I hope I make her as happy as she makes me. I can't wait to see her again and to feel her body against mine. Right now Reba's song "How Was I To Know" is playing. This song relates to my life right now...I never thought I'd be this strong to move on from Michael and face my life without him. The fear of being alone is what I have been afraid of. But I realize now that I am not alone. She may be 6hrs away but she is always with me and anytime I need her she will be there for me to talk to. I thought my world was crashing down a few weeks ago...and maybe it did, but I have picked up the pieces and day by day I have been moving on with my life. Sure I miss having someone to hold me or me hold them but in time I will get passed that. I have my baby to hold me when we see each other. She is all I want and need. Im gonna go for now but not forever!! :) :)