Gloomy Day

All this rain makes me want to just sleep. I was so mad when I got woke up at 4 this morning cramping. I am still really glad CeCe is coming this weekend. We can hold each other all weekend and talk and just spend time together. Mother Nature had other plans than I did I guess. Atleast we will be together. Im super excited. She will be here tomorrow night. Right now I am sitting in the livingroom with mom and my stepdad talking about dogs, chickens and horse shows. Not my favorite topics but OK....My fucking stitches have been pulling all day and it fucking hurts. I put some cream on my hand a little bit ago and it helped loosen them up and now they are not pulling as bad. I still haven't heard from Michael, he is really starting to piss me off. I dont know what he thinks he is doing by not responding to me. But he is only making it worse on himself...he will figure that out in the end. All I know is he better not wait til the weekend to decide to text or call me because if he tries to fuck up my weekend I will fucking hurt him. I have got to start figuring out what i am going to take with me to the hotel this weekend. I want to atleast look half ass cute for her. If thats possible!!!! JK baby...dont get all fiesty on me...Yeah I really want to cut my left ovary out...this motherfucker is acting retarded today...I hate being a damn woman sometimes...but I guess thats what God wanted me to be so I just have to deal with it. I think ill wear my boots and jeans and my cowboy hat this weekend...JK again honey...Im gonna go for now but not forever...Love you Babe