I cant believe it is already March

Wow... March already...the time has flown by this year already...man its like life never slows down anymore...always spinning and time catches up and flies by you. It seems the older I get the faster it flies. I went and got Michael's check out of the bank this morning and paid the light bill and kept $60.00 for myself and gave him the rest of the money. Today was the first time I have seen him in over a week. He looked terrible. Hadn't shaved since I last shaved him last...I think he is realizing a lot of things. I did everything for him. He is having a hard time without me because he doesn't know how to do anything...But I guess in time he will learn how to be independent. I thought it would bother me to see him..but it didn't. It's over and I can see that now. Usually if we split up all it takes is me seeing him and I want him back. But this time it is really over and we are going through with the divorce. It is still hard on me and my anxiety is so bad today. I'm really having a hard time dealing with it all. Much harder time than I actually thought I would. My fear is being alone. I do not like being alone. My cousin katie has been staying with me for over a week and idk what I would do without her. Even though I am married I am not in love with him anymore. I have a new Love and I love her with all my heart and she loves me too. I can be myself now. Which is a lesbian. Everyone knows except My mom and stepdad. In time they will know...but not right now. Idk what I would do without my new love. She talks to me and helps me through all this. She is married also....but we are in love. Im gonna go for now but not forever...