So when I woke up this morning I had 4 missed calls from my biological mother. I thought to myself what does she want? So i didnt call her back right away. She called again a minute ago and I had to make myself answer the phone. She wants me to take her to the emergency room becasue her shoulder is swelled up and hurt. She has rotator cuff problems. But anyways I told her I can't because Michael is in my car. She gets mad. And then she comes up with a million different things to get a away for me to take her. I told her to ask her mother and she says her mother ill not take her because she is just gonna assume she is going to get pain pills. Well thats a true story. When she has a little pain she is hunting a way to get some pain pills. I have no way to take her and she is not happy. I have taken her many times before and the last time i took her she got so fucked up that she couldn't even walk. So no Im not taking her just so she can get pills and get fucked up. Grant it I used to be a pill head. I used to be an alcoholic too. I stopped acting stupid at an early age. She is 45 and still wants to act stupid. She has 3 children. Me and my 2 younger brothers. Daniel who is 20 and Drew who is fixing to turn 7. She gave us all up for adoption. She would have rather been on drugs her whole life than to raise her own kids. Now I love this woman I really do but I can't support her habits. I can't go back to that life and if I'm around it alot I want to do it too. I love to drink but I can't do that often and I love pills...Im so thankful I could control my pill taking thru all my back problems in 2011 and my surgery. I took them like i was supposed to. There was alot of times I would want to take 3 Percocets instead of 1. But I made it through it. I'm proud of myself. Idk if she will stay mad a long time or what but Im making the best decision for me. Yes I could go borrow my moms van and take her. But I'm not going to. She can ask someone else to take her. Goodbye for now but not forever!
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