Morning

Well Michael is off today and all we have done so far is argue. I wish he was at work or I was at work. I don't even want to be around him anymore. The sight of him makes me sick most of the time. So much I could say about our relationship but Im not going to embarrass myself because of his ignorant behavior....all the truth will come out one day....It is so cold outside...brrr....I actually went to bed at a descent time last night but I woke up at 6:30 hurting like hell....It seriously sucks being a woman...I have felt the urge to bring up past relationships the past few days...but I am not going to do that...I gotta continue moving on with my life. I guess its cause im alone...or it feels that way every minute of my life. Maybe one day that will change. I hope so...cause feeling alone is never a good feeling. Sometimes the thought of the comfort of a stranger even feels good....but of course it never happens...getting used to it...oh well...I am ready to go to work. So I don't have to be stuck here at this house all the time...I need to get the hell out...What i really need if for him to get the hell out...that will come in due time also...I need to find happiness for me cause its sure not hanging around right now...it seems very outta reach...Its like that song "Ring on her finger" the arms of a stranger is the only place left to turn...I hope my friend is having a good day so far at work...Goodbye for now but not forever!