Good Day

Well wen went and paid bills this morning and took Daniel home. THANK GOODNESS!!!!! He will be back in a few weeks Im sure. We went to Myrtle and sat with Michaels grandmother several hours. She is going down fast. It's not going to be long. She managed to tell Aunt Shirley to tell Michael that she is ready to go home and see her momma. And Michael told her it was ok if she was ready and then he lost it and ran to the kitchen and fell to his knees and i held him and we cried. He doesnt want to let her go but we know its time to do so. Its really hard on him since she is the one that raised him. I feel sorry for him. I know what he is going thru and what he is facing. It is not going to be an easy road ahead. But I am going to be there for him the whole way. I do love him. I just wish we was as happy together as we used to be. But for right now he needs me and I am going to be here. After this i do not know what will happen to us. But time will tell. He was there for me when I lost my dad and both my grandmothers and an aunt and 2 uncles in 07. I lost alot of people I loved with all my heart and he stood right there by me thru it all. I even had a nervous break down from it all and he stood by me and helped me up from that dark place in my life. So i have to be there for him and I love his grandmother like she is my own. She is a special lady. I know the end is near and its scares me because I dont know how he is going to be when and after it happens. His world is going to fall apart. I gotta stay strong for him. Besides all that it has been a good day. I talked to several places about jobs. There are a few part time openings. Thats what Im looking for for right now because my back is so weak. IDK if i can start out with a full load just yet. But if i have to I will. I will just work thru the pain best that I can. I have also gotta quit smoking again. I have got to get my mind set to quit. I am working on that. it will happen soon. I gotta go fold clothes and the washer is almost done so gotta put them in the dryer. Goodbye for now but not forever!