My new Job

Well I got a new job down here in gulfport as a cashier. It didn't take me long to realize how much I missed working in retail. I never thought I would get back into retail but I still love it. It is rough on my back but I am dealing with that the best I can. Take the pain and go on with it. I still like living here. I have been here over a month. Its been several weeks since I have seen my family and I do miss them. Ive never been this long without seeing them. It is hard but I can handle it. I talk to them every day and that helps. Katie came for the weekend to see me and we have had a good time hanging out. It was good to see a familiar face. I don't know anyone here except CeCe and Stephen and the people I work with. They are all nice and I enjoy working with them. I am only making minimum wage but that is better than nothing. It is full time so I am proud of that. I was really beginning to worry if I was going to find a job or not. But it happened and I am happy. Michael is driving me crazy wanting me back. I had a long talk with his Aunt tonight about it and my mind is made up. I am better without him because all he is going to do is bring me back down and thats not something I need in my life when I have came so far now. I don't want to be back in that dark hole again. It was no fun there. There are things I miss about him and things I dont miss. I can't physically, mentally or emotionally take the arguing anymore. 5 years of it was enough and I deserve much better than that. I was really good to him and he never appreciated it until I was gone and wasnt doing shit for him every day. Well that was his loss. He fucked that up. I hope he finds a woman or man that treats him the way he treated me. I am going to go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe..

Living in GulfPort

This morning I packed the rest of my stuff into CeCe's car and headed south to my new home in GulfPort. It was hard to say bye to all my family but I know I will be happier here with CeCe and Stephen. Stephen and I have gotten close and I like it. I am so glad to be able to see my babygirl every day. I have waited 8 months for this. Being away from her weeks and months at a time was so hard. I will miss my family. I have never been away from them all like this. Momma got very upset driving off from me this morning but I know in a few days she will be ok. I thought I would cry as I drove down the driveway but I didn't. In a way I felt relieved. I am sure in time I will start missing Pontotoc but as of right now I do not. Im ready to get a job and get started living my life here. It is so beautiful here and I am with 2 of the most beautiful people I have ever met. Makes life grand. I brought Snickers back with me today and she seems to be adjusting well to the change. Her and Bo play well together. Im glad they like each other. I dont think sylvester likes her too much. maybe in time he will be ok with her. Right now all 3 of us are sitting on the back porch watching SurvivorMan. It is a cool show. I am gonna go for now but not forever. I love you Cece!
 

In the Great place called Gulfport

I am in Gulfport with my baby. The trip down here was great...and when we finally got here it was even better. I am so glad to get to spend these days with her. I have missed her a lot and have been dying to be with her again. Stephen is going to fix my car. He is a great guy. I will be paying them back even though they say Im not. It was good to see BoBo when we got here. He has gained a little weight since last time I seen him. He is an awesome dog. The weekend has just began. I so needed this time with CeCe. I can't wait to go down to the beach and walk around with her. I am goig to go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe

Had a great week

My baby came wednesday night and stayed til Sat morning. I think this was the hardest time I have had after her leaving. It killed my soul. I love this girl so much and i enjoy every minute we spend together. I had an awesome time with her here. Just being around her makes me so happy. Our intimate times were amazing. The times just laying in bed talking were amazing also. Driving her car and having her sit beside me and us talking and my hand on her leg was great. I had a little emotional break down thursday night. I had so much on my mind and I have made a lot of mistakes and I hope she knows I do love her with everything in me no matter what mistakes I have made and she is my whole world and I can not live my life without her in it. I feel us growing closer again and i love this feeling and I never want us to grow apart again. I never want to go thru that and feel that again. I never want to make her feel that way again. She is my life and my world. I had the best time with her here. I started orientation this week and it has only been 2 days and I am mentally exhausted with all the stuff i have to learn. I hope I can do this and do it good. Its going to be a stressful job but I think I can do this. We have to do the documenting right on with no mistakes and thats what worries me the most. But I am sure I am stressing for nothing. Right now i need a stiff drink...but thats not happening because I have to be back in orientation in the morning....the rest of the week is going to be stressful...Thursday and Friday are going to be physical...hopefully I will get through this without hurting myself. I am gonna go for now but not forever. I Love you CeCe

Good Morning

Well I stayed with Leann last night. Her and I stayed up like really late talking about a lot of things. She is trying to do better and I hope she continues. I do love her with all my heart. I slept in her big ass comfortable bed with her :) Haven't slept in bed with her since I was little. We laid in bed and talked for a while too and then we both drifted off to sleep. I tossed and turned a lot but I slept ok. I have got to someone figure out a way to get my mind to stop racing at night so I can sleep. Just have way too much on my mind. I really hope I get a call from the man at MillCreek next week. If I can get on there I want to save money and then transfer to Magee, Ms. I am ready to leave Pontotoc. Although some think I won't, they will see. I have to get the 2 window units put in my trailer today if it will not rain all day. It isn't raining right now but no one is up to put them in for me. I feel so tired. My back is hurting some this morning. I had an intense dream and I think I stayed tensed up during the whole dream and it made my back hurt. Im fixen to go find me something to drink and just relax a little while. I am gonna go for now but not forever.

Been a While

It has been a while since I have blogged. A lot has actually happened. A few weeks ago CeCe and I met in Richland and stayed the night in a hotel. It was great to spend time with her. We have went through a lot lately and we both have shed tears and made mistakes but we are doing ok. I do love her with all my heart and I want to be with her the rest of my life. I could never love anyone like I love that woman. She completes me and she is my reason for living everyday. She warms my heart and gives me butterflies. She always knows how to make me laugh and she always listens and cares when something is wrong. We live far apart but she is with me every second in my heart. I gave her my heart a long time ago and she holds it gently and I hold hers. She is my world and I miss her every second of every day. It is hard not getting to see each other but we have been together for 6 months and we have made it this far. Grant it we have had our problems like everybody does in a relationship. Our only real problem is the distance but we have hung in there so far and we have made it. I fucked up really bad and I almost lost her and I don't know what I would have done if she hadn't of forgiven me. We both have made mistakes and it caused a lot of mixed feelings but I know in time we will be back to the way we was. My heart beats only for her. She will prolly never fully understand what she means to me. When the time is right I will tell her but even then Idk if she will fully understand. She doesn't realize how beautiful and wonderful she really is. The touch of her hand makes my heart melt. No one has ever done that to me. I give her my heart, mind, body and soul. I am very much in love with her. And everyday it gets stronger....and at the same time everyday it gets harder being away from her. My heart longs for her, my body aches for her and my eyes cry for her. Hopefully soon we will see each other again. On the 28th of June I had a fun party and it was fun. Rehgan, Becka, aunt gail, aunt ruby, laken, and katie came. We all had a good time. The next day after my party I went to the lake for 3 days and I had a good time and I took snickers and she enjoyed herself. I came home earlier than I had planned because I got sick while I was there and I am still sick but I am better than I was. I went to the dr and got 2 shots and they helped for a few days, but it hasn't completely went away. On the 28th of July Rehgan and Becka are having a fun party and they are serving Hunch punch...thats gonna be interesting. I know we will all have fun. CeCe and Stephen got moved in their new house this past week and weekend and I know they are really tired and ready to just rest. I know they are going to be happy there and I am happy for them. They have a great marriage. Something I always wanted but never had. But shit happens. 2 days ago I was at Wal Mart and Michael and I made eye contact and that was very disturbing to me. The way he looked at me was a look he has never given me. After we made eye contact he made a beeline for the back and he stayed in the back I guess until I was out of the frozen section. Its hard to look at him and not think about the 5 years I spent with him. Do I want him back? No i dont...I do miss his presence at times because I hate being alone. I do sometimes miss how he would make me laugh and I miss the michael that I once loved....but people tell him I say I want him back and I have never said that. Me and him tried too many times to make this marriage work and it just wasn't meant to be like I once thought it was. I have moved on and I love someone else now and I hope he has fell in love again to and I do honestly wish him nothing but happiness. I talked to my baby for a while on the phone tonight. It is always so relaxing to talk to her and she makes me laugh. I am so incredibly happy with her. Baby I love you so much and please never forget that. I am gonna go for now but not forever. I Love you CeCe

Just another Day

Well its friday...I have physical therapy at 3:30...not looking forward to that but I recon I gotta go. Hope mom is feeling better today after falling yesterday. She is just going to be sore for a few days. Guess Im going to have to start doing everything for them so the dont get hurt...seems like every time something happens when Im not doing it for them. Idk what else I will do today. I guess clean house. Im still at Katies right now. Leann is gone to work and Katie and Nicki are still in the bed. I didn't sleep worth a shit as usual. I should have just gotten drunk like I wanted to. But I didn't...Tonight may be a different story...Im sure Leann will go to the VFW again...so Idk what Katie is gonna do. I guess her and Nicki will either stay at home or come to my house to keep me company..or hell I may just come back down here and keep them company. Either way is fine with me. Im gonna go for now but not forever.

Fathers Day

I hate fathers day. But i got up and went to church and sang my heart out to my daddy. I left crying. My heart was so broken all day...I laid in the livingroom floor on a mattress with a pic of me daddy beside me and cried. He did a lot wrong in his life and was not the best person but he was my daddy and I loved him and I still do. It was always a love hate thing with him. But above all he took care of me when nobody else wanted me. He had a lot of anger problems and I know that now and I know why. I miss his laugh and his smile. I miss all his jokes and stories. I am trying so hard to hang on to all my memories and memories of his laugh and his voice. But those 2 things are slowly drifting from my mind. I went to the cemetary and the wind had blown his flowers off his grave and I seen them in the woods and I went into the woods and got them and put them back on his grave and I fell to my knees crying at his tombstone. I have so many emotions built up...I kept thinking about the last fathers day I had with him and how he never got to see what I got him because he was so sick and didnt even have the strength to open his eyes to see them....and 4 days later he died....I was holding his hand when he took his last breathe and then i passed out....and I woke up on the floor to momma screaming and michael holding my head....him and the preacher caught me and kept me from hitting my head on the floor....I have never felt pain in my heart like that day and every day since. i still remember it like it was yesterday....i gues that is a memory i will never forget....although i would like to forget that day....Today i have been just so on edge and ill...I haven't slept good in a few nights and when I do sleep I have bad dreams about different people...Idk whats going on...but there is so much going on in my head that i can't even get it all out...I can't talk to no one about it...i just keep it all inside and hope it all just goes away...but I know deep down it is not gonna go away...Idk...I am gonna go for now but not forever...

Another Day

I haven't gotten a chance to blog in a while. I am enjoying being at home. Got my Direct Tv working and I have my DVD player going...Got my livingroom furniture put where I want it. Still got stuff I gotta do to make me completely happy... I have thought about CeCe so much here lately. It is 11 days til she will be here and I can't wait to see her and be in her arms again. It will be so nice. Snickers and jake both are tied up now...Snickers is heartbroken. Makes me sad. But it will be ok...I went to therapy Friday and he about killed me and I go back Monday...I gotta go to the Chiropractor Monday also. I went swimming yesterday and it about killed me...I jumped in 3 or 4 times....and did flips and stuff....prolly wasnt the smartest thing to do but I enjoyed myself. I am ready to go back to work. I just hope my back will continue to improve and not go back down hill whenever I start working again. My therapist said my line of work can undo everything he has worked to make better...I am so hoping not. Idk what i will do if that happens. I guess it will mean the CNA career will be over and I will have to go back to cashiering until I could go back to school. Momma and David are taking the van and I have no way to go...which totally sucks ass...oh well....I am gonna go back home and do some more cleaning and stuff. I am gonna go for now but not forever.... I love you CeCe.

Its Monday

Well today is Monday....it has been an ok day I guess....I went to the Chiropractor this afternoon...I have to start Physical Therapy Wednesday. I know it is going to be painful and I am not lookin forward to it but if it will help me then I am willing to endure more pain. I am gonna be off work a little while...unless I find another job that I can handle doing. Its obvious CNA may not be what I can do anymore. I am realizing that now. CeCe and I talked on the phone a while when she got off. It was good to hear her voice. I love talking to her. Sorry you got violated honey :) I am going to violate you too but I think you will like it when I do it. I haven't heard from Aunt gail..her and Aunt Ruby were at the lake with momma and David yesterday. I hope they all had a lovely time...Im sure I was talked about and thats fine...I do not care anymore...I guess it gives someone else a break when they talk about me. I went by sonic and got a watermelon slush. I love these damn things...Im addicted...Paula and my Aunt Rhonda are coming over here..YAY!! NOT! They will be here soon. I don't know why they want to see me but whatever I guess....I am gonna go for now but not forever.. I love you baby!

Been a bad day

I got up this morning and went to the dr. Well I have to have physical therapy and go to the chiropractor every day. Well while mom and I was at the dr office my aunt gail calls to see what all the dr is saying and she makes and very hurtful and mean comment that I overheard as they were talkin and I went off in the dr office. I was crying and cussing. Momma just hung up the phone. Her and I argued all day because that pissed me off and hurt me so bad and momma didn't even call her back and defend me. But thats ok....she is gone back to the lake now and I hope she stays down there until they r ready to come back home. My plans are to be moved back in my trailer when they get back. I talked to my boss and I still have a job and she is going to try to put me on part time instead of full time until I get done with physical therapy. There is still no guarantee I can be a CNA so I will be looking for another job to do. I may have to go back to being a cashier until I can go back to school. I will work anywhere just about just to be able to stay in my trailer. I have always said I would never work in fast food but if thats what I gotta do to pay my bills and be in my house I will do it until something better comes along. I am to the point of doing anything. I do not know what I would have done without my baby today. She helped me get thru this day and she never lets me give up and she loves me unconditionally. I am so happy with her. I really couldn't face a day without knowing she was on my side and that I have her in my life. She truly is my everything and I love her with every ounce of my mind body and soul. I can't wait to have her in my arms again. Baby I do love you so much. Katie is here and she is going to help me get my trailer completely ready and move my stuff back in. I can't wait to get my life back and live my life the way I want to. Atleast if people are going to talk about me I wont be around to hear it. Cause I know I will be talked about and that is fine. People can judge me and think what they want about me. Whatever makes them happy. All I am worried about is me and my sweetheart. As long as we are ok then IDC about the rest of the world. I just want to work and pay my bills and be able to do things and make it on my on. Some people seem to think I dont want to work and thats complete bullshit because I have always loved to work...and I worked my ass off to be a CNA. Some things just make no sense at all...but whatever...I will prove EVERYBODY wrong. Well I'm going to stop bitchin now...just needed to get that off my chest. I am gonna go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe.

Hurting

I am sitting here with Aunt Gail. Her air quit in her trailer so she came over here so she don't have a heat stroke. I am hurting so bad and I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should go to work and risk having to leave or just stay home and call in. I am sick to my stomach about this shit. I don't understand why it has to be this way and why I can't just be normal now. But apparently I am not supposed to ask why...but I do anyways. No matter if I am sitting, standing, laying, I can't get comfortable. It just sucks and it is so depressing. I gotta make up my mind what I am going to do. I was so hoping I would be able to continue to do CNA work but I am just not sure if i can or not. Time will tell. I really need someone to just hold me and tell me I am going to be ok. But the one person I need is 5 hours away. But just hearing her voice helps me and I know she loves me and would be here if she could. I guess I am just being a baby. Idk...I just need someone to pick me up and make me feel better. I fell asleep earlier and had a freaking stupid dream...I woke up pissed. Idk why I dream some of the things I dream. Some things just make no sense at all. We are sitting here watchin Days of Our Lives. Thats the only Soap Opera I have ever liked. Its getting sad because Lexi is going to die soon. I haven't done anything today. I was hoping resting would help me but it hasn't. I have so much I want to type but I just can't do it. Maybe I'm closing back up. Idk...I don't want to do that but I feel myself holding back on a lot of things with a lot of people. Idk...I am gonna go for now but not forever.

Just another day!

I had a great afternoon and night last night skyping and talking to my darlin. It was so good to see her. She is so beautiful. Maybe one day she will believe me. We had some great phone sex too...lol...I love to hear her moan and cum. I can't for her to come see me in a few weeks. It still feels so far away. I just want to put my arms around her and kiss her. I miss her touch, her kiss, her smile, her laugh. I miss everything. She has no idea what she does to me. I do love her with everything in me. I went to sleep about 1:15 this morning. I stayed up as long as I could. I was so tired. I slept til 6:30. I will have to lay down again sometime today before work. My back was hurting really bad when I got up. Idk if Ill be able to work tonight. It is really about to get on my last nerve...I go in the morning for the MRI. I really want to know whats going on and what my future is looking like with my back. I have a feeling Im going to be heart broken. Its just doesnt feel like a muscle to me. It feels like it always has....a bulged disc....I will know soon enough. My baby is at work. I have thought about her a lot this morning. Thats nothing unusal. I don't think she ever thinks about me...lol...jk...I can't believe my friends husband died. Thats crazy. Her and their 2 boys are going to be completely lost without Scottie. Its so sad. My phone goes off at Midnight tonight. Gotta try to get me some mins. Ill be glad when I get paid and I can get a $25 card or something. Right now my left leg its hurting. Something is on the nerve in my leg again. This shit is for the birds. I don't like it at all. My sinuses are trying to fuck up today. I hate that too. Snickers chased a fucking tractor down the road this morning and me constantly yelling no snickers. She listens so well. She has gotten in a bad habit of chasing vehicles. Im afraid she will be dead in the road one day if she keeps being stupid. She will not listen to me when I tell her no...so there is nothing I can do about it. This weekend I am going to move back in my trailer. Ill prolly still come to mommas some because she has internet. Ill have to blog and check face book and skype with CeCe when we can. I swear I feel like I could go back to sleep. The past 5 days and nights have wore me out. My body is sayin wtf are you doing to me. I guess I am gonna go for now but not forever....I love you baby!

My night off

I woke up at 2:45 and then talked to my honey at 3. I went and got something to eat and now I am skyping with her. I have a load of clothes in the washer. I have so much I want to get caught up on while I am off tonight. I have a lot of laundry to do. Momma and David will be back tomorrow sometime. It is so hot outside. I think it is going to be a rough summer....I had a decent night at work. I was really tired when I got off. I slept pretty good for a few hours. I have to find something to do to stay up all night tonight. I guess I will find something interesting on tv to watch. I am sitting here looking at my baby on cam and realizing how much I truly do miss her. Its so hard being away from her. Im glad we are getting to skype today. I have missed seeing her beautiful face. :) I am gonna go for now but not forever. I love you Baby!

4th night at work

Well I have been home for about 30mins. Had a long night at work and I am tired. I work tonight but then I'm off Monday night. Im ready for my day off. My body is still screaming at me asking me what the hell I think I am doing. My back hurt some while I was at work. I really hope I do not have a spell like I did the other night. I go Wednesday and have a MRI done on my back to see what is causing my pain. I hope and pray its just muscles and not another disc messed up. It scares me to even think about it. My baby is at work. I miss her so much.Can't wait to see her again. Just a few more weeks. Maybe I can last that long. Went to Aunt Kathys yesterday for a cookout and swimming. I floated around in the pool for a little while. I knew I wouldn't be able to swim because of my back. I enjoyed talking to Pam. I have thought about her several times since I left the cookout. She is so broken hearted over her husband killing himself. They have 3 kids together. I just don't understand why he did it. But its not left up to me to wonder. I hope Pam will pull thru this and be ok and I hope her kids are going to be ok too. Well I am sitting here and can barely keep my eyes open. They are telling me its time to sleep. I am goin to go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe

First Night At Work

Well I enjoyed my first night at work. I like the girls I work with. My back is a little sore but not hurting. I forgot to wear my backbrace. I am going to try to remember to go get it tonight and wear it and see how much of a difference it makes. When I got home I couldnt go right to sleep. So I fell asleep about 9 and at 1230 I woke up like I had been sleeping for days. I finally fell back asleep about 130 or so and woke up at 3 to talk to my babygirl....I will lay back down sometime tonight and take a nap before work. I have not worn closed toe shoes since sept and my feet could not breathe last night....they hurt some but not too bad....they were kinda swollen from the shoes....when I pulled them off I swear I heard AHHHHH...lol...it will take me a while to get used to shoes...but in time I will. I am trying to talk Aunt Gail into stopping by Taco Bell on her way home and getting me something to eat :) She loves me so she is gonna do it. I soooo missed talking to CECE this morning. But I got to talk to her at 3. I do miss her so much. Idk if she even realizes how much. Just the touch of her hand in mine, her lips on mine, and her arms in mine. I just want to be in her arms so bad right now. I still have a month to wait. I really hope time flies and it hurries up and gets here. Its hard being away from someone you love. I am looking forward to work tonight. It shouldnt take me long to catch on to everything. I am going to go now but not forever. Baby I love you!

Nervous

I am so nervous about starting my new job tonight. I could throw up. I haven't worked since Oct...the first few nights are going to be rough. I am nervous cause its a new place and new people. I am also nervous because I am worried about my back. I keep telling myself that I am fine and that the dr fixed my problem. Im sure Im right and that I am fine. I just gotta be careful and not do anything stupid. I slept for almost 3 hours this afternoon. I know in the morning I am going to crash. I am going to be so tired. Will take me a few nights to get used to it. I am just sitting here with the tv off and staring at the walls thinking. Thats never good. I think way too much as it is. Momma and David are gone to the lake and it is so quiet in here. Feel kinda lonely in this big house. Next week I am prolly gonna get completely moved back into my trailer. That will be exciting. Start my new life without Michael. Will take me a while to get used to being there by myself but I know I can do it. I will be glad to get my first check. It will be small but its a start. I bought me a new pair of scrubs today. They are cute. I got me some shoes and a stethoscope yesterday. I gotta soon invest in a watch. I hate watches and im allergic to so many of them. But I gotta have one for vital signs. Tonight I will start orientation and work some on the floor with my trainer. Im excited to get to know all the residents. I hope they all like me. I hope all the girls I work with like me. I worry about things like that. Everybody always says I shouldn't worry because everybody always like me. I guess we will see. Aunt Kathy is having a cookout Saturday and I am going. I am going to relax and swim.  I am sure I will have to work that night so I will enjoy the swim. It will be nice to see all the family again. I am a little hungry and don't know what I want to eat. Ill think of something between now and then. It is such a weird feeling to be so ready to start working again and yet be scared to death. I have never been this scared about a job. Maybe I will get over it soon. I am gonna go for now but not forever.

Busy Weekend

Most of the day yesterday I cleaned in the trailer. I am almost completely done. I will be ready to move back in soon. I hope I hear from leisa tomorrow about my drug test. I know I passed so i should start work this week sometime. I am ready to know my schedule. I hate not knowing. Last night I went to Aunt Gails for a while where all the women were playing that game I hate. The laughed and had a good time. Tucker was there and he was snoozing and I have no idea how he slept thru all their loud mouths. While I was there Katie showed up. So since Aunt Gail don't like her too much I left so she wouldnt be there and we hung out at the trailer. I did not sleep good at all. Michael called one of our mutual friends yesterday morning so now I have his number and I text him. He has the papers ready and he has signed. Just waiting on me to sign. And Idk what to do since he owes mom money. The thing is she has no proof he owes her anything. So I am like wtf am I supposed to do because she is going to be mad if I dont get him to sign something saying he will pay her. I am just ready to be divorced and move on with my life...I will figure it all out just like I figure everything thing out one way or another. My honey called me from work today. It was so good to hear her voice. She always makes me laugh. I have lack of motivation today for cleaning up in the trailer so I came up to moms. Maybe later this afternoon I will wont to do it. I am almost done but its draining me for some reason. I think maybe just the day I had yesterday. Not going to talk about that because everything is ok now. I cried alot and put a hole in the wall and now Im mad at myself because I have to fix the damn hole. Thats always lovely...When I got here snickers acted like she hasnt seen me in a week. I swear she is on dope. She is always wide open. Mom and David are getting ready to go to see his mother. Him and his brother are having a meeting with some people today. They are putting his mother on Hospice. Its sad. I hate to watch him go through all this but it happens to everybody. I have so much on my mind that it is unreal. I am so ready to get my life started again. Get my place decorated like I want it and not fucking western bullshit that Michael always wanted. I haven't talked to Paula yet today. Idk if Daniel has moved back in or what. I still am not going to apologize. I am so sick of the bullshit that comes a long with him. Im pretty sick of them all. I love all 3 of them a lot but they stress me out sooo much and I just don't need to be worrying about all thats shit. So I try not to. I am sure she will call me before the day is up. I have got to get over there sometime and get all my stuff. She has it all put up for me so it wont get tore up. I just gotta make myself go over there and get it. Yeah not wanting to go over there too bad right now. Ok well I have rambled enough...I am going to go for now but not forever....

Crazy day...

Well I got the job. I have to wait on the results of my drug test. I have filled out almost all the paperwork. I hope to start next week. So much drama is going on in my life with some of my family...I am just sick of shit. But I am not going to let other peoples stupidity ruin my good mood. I miss my honey and I really want to see her. I do love her so much. I am tired. I could go to sleep and sleep til in the morning. I gotta stay up tho so I can sleep tonight. I am really ready to start work and be able to move back into my place...it will be so good to be able to go back home. I am going to go for now but not forever. I Love You CeCe

Job Hunting

Well I went job hunting this morning. I went to Magnolia Personal Care Home in New Albany. I talked to 2 women there and had a mini interview. The head woman said they do not have anything right now but that you never know when they will need someone so they are putting my application on top. Then I went over to Graceland in New Albany and filled out an application and had an interview. She wants me to try to get my background records from my last place of employment so I do not have to do the finger printing all over again. There is a position open on 3-11 shift. She told me to let her know if I can or can not get a copy of those records and bring them to her. I am really hoping I can get the job. She asked me about my surgery and stuff. She has to call my references and get me checked out...lol..and she asked could I pass a drug test and I said yes no doubt because I am drug free. She seemed like a nice lady. She said if i got hired that they would train me as long as I needed before assigning me my own list of residents. She talked really positive about it. So I am hoping it will happen. I am just so ready to go back home and be in my place. Ready to start my life new and be happy for the first time in a while. Thats all I am ready for. I am going to go for now but not forever...I Love you CeCe