4th night at work

Well I have been home for about 30mins. Had a long night at work and I am tired. I work tonight but then I'm off Monday night. Im ready for my day off. My body is still screaming at me asking me what the hell I think I am doing. My back hurt some while I was at work. I really hope I do not have a spell like I did the other night. I go Wednesday and have a MRI done on my back to see what is causing my pain. I hope and pray its just muscles and not another disc messed up. It scares me to even think about it. My baby is at work. I miss her so much.Can't wait to see her again. Just a few more weeks. Maybe I can last that long. Went to Aunt Kathys yesterday for a cookout and swimming. I floated around in the pool for a little while. I knew I wouldn't be able to swim because of my back. I enjoyed talking to Pam. I have thought about her several times since I left the cookout. She is so broken hearted over her husband killing himself. They have 3 kids together. I just don't understand why he did it. But its not left up to me to wonder. I hope Pam will pull thru this and be ok and I hope her kids are going to be ok too. Well I am sitting here and can barely keep my eyes open. They are telling me its time to sleep. I am goin to go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe