Opening Up

Well last night I told a story that I have been avoiding for a long time because I hate thinking or talking about it. It was seriously hard to tell it and I did cry. When you get hurt that bad it is extremely hard to talk about the situation. I am not sure why I haven't already told CeCe the story, but I hadn't until now. I am sure she has always wondered what happened. Well now she knows. I am a little worried about her. She has a lot on her mind and she is questioning different things. No matter what I will always stand by her and be here for her. I am still not sure after a little over 4 months whats this woman has done to me. I don't know why it is sometimes so easy to talk to her and open up to her after I promised myself I would never do that again. What we have is real and my heart is content. I am very comfortable with her and I honestly do not believe she will ever hurt me like I have been hurt in the past. I trust her with everything in me and I have come to realize how much she does care about me. I made her upset yesterday because she is tired of me giving in and getting "used". I am not used to someone giving a damn. I see now how much she does care. I was so glad to get to talk to her this morning. Its always nice to wake up to her voice. She is my sunshine :). She is leaving today for laurel. I hope she has a beautiful weekend with her family. I know she misses them all so much and she loves them so much. Stephens surgery is a few days away. I know he is super excited and CeCe is nervous. I am going to get up with her that morning and be by my phone incase she needs me. I really want to go to paulas this weekend...but Idk if ill be able to or not...guess we shall see. I can't believe it is fixen to be May already. Its crazy how fast this year is going by. Well I am gonna go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe