Happy

Today is a whole new day. Last night I got drunk..yeah maybe I shouldn't have drank that much. Got a slight hangover today. Im good tho. I really miss my honey. We had a good weekend and I hated for her to go home but I know she has her life in GulfPort. Im so excited she told me she got us tickets for Bret Michaels concert. That is such a dream come true. This woman is changing my life and is changing me. I am a better person with her. I have never loved so deep in my life. I would die for her. I have never felt so deep for someone to do that except like my mother. I love being able to call her mine. She is the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last at night. What her and I have is so real. The way we feel for each other is real and we have a strong bond and our love will overcome all the obstacles that cross our paths. We have made it so far. We do hate living so far a part but so far it is working out. I am hoping to solve the distance problem. It may take time but I plan to get the hell out of here. I need to make a life elsewhere for a while. Start my life over and move on from my past. I still have not heard from Michael so I really have no idea what is actually going on with our divorce. Who fucking knows...cause I don't. Looks like Im going to have to get my lawyer to get his ass in gear or something...Idk what Michael is thinking other than he doesn't want to pay momma what he owes her. I'm just ready to be divorced and move on with my life. I have been depressed and shit a lot but above all I feel so much better without him. Took me a while to get passed it all...but I'm not having to argue with someone everyday and I have a peace of mind for the first time in years. It feels good to finally be free. Now I just gotta focus on getting my life together and my future with CeCe. She is wonderful...but she doesn't see that she is beautiful and wonderful. But she definently is and I love her with everything in me. I am sitting here watching a movie on LMN. Its pretty good. Momma and David are still in the bed. Today is their 2 year anniversary. I can't believe it has already been 2 years. I still remember the first time I met David like it was yesterday. Yeah I didn't like the idea at first of him dating my mother but I couldnt stop her and I wouldn't stop her. Now I'm glad I just accepted it because I have never in my life seen her as happy as she is. They are still just as much in love as they were the day they got married. Momma was so beautiful on their wedding day...Memories...well I'm gonna go for now but not forever.. I love you CeCe