Been a busy day

Well today has been an ok day pretty much. Mother nature is about to get on my nerves but it didn't stop me from doing what I wanted to do. I went to my trailer and cleaned the kitchen. It was very emotional at times but I made it thru it. When I first got there I found a poem I had written about my daddy a while back and i am not sure how it even got there..but it did..I found a few pics also. But the kitchen is all cleaned and I am happy with how it looks. I have got to get started on the livingroom soon...hopefully tomorrow I will feel up to it. Tomorrow will be a long day for my honey. I am gonna help her thru it best way I can from 300 miles away. Everything is going to be just fine tho. I really miss her a lot. I can't wait to have her in my arms again. In a few weeks I will be able to be with her again. I'm really excited. I love every moment we spend together and I cherish those moments. I have plans to express myself to her that weekend. This will be something I have never done but I feel the need to do it. I want her to know exactly what she means to me and how deep I love her and there is a few other things I am going to talk about that she has been wanting to me to talk to her about. The best thing is...this time when I am crying she will be there to hold me like I need her to and like she has been wanting to do. This woman is my world. I did a lot of thinking over the weekend while I was at Paulas and I have realized its time to move on with my life and get myself together and that is exactly what I am going to do. It is going to be a long road but I am going to do it. CeCe believes in me and helps me through everything more than she knows. Without her I couldn't do this. I am ready to love me again and start my new life. I want to get a job of some kind and stay at my trailer and save money for a while and then plan to move south in time. I do not know how long it will take me, but Im going to make it happen. Aunt Gail just text and asked if I would massage her back. So I guess Im gonna head over there and take care of her for a little while. Im gonna go for now but not forever. I love you CeCe.