Don't feel good

Well apparently I am getting sick. My ear has been hurting all day. For the past hour I have had cold sweats. I have 101.3 fever. that sux. I have actually had a good day. I hate being sick. I gotta try and find my ear drops. I got to talk to my sweetheart for a while on the phone when she got off work today. I love talk to her and hearing her voice. She always makes me smile. I love that girl so much. I am so ready to get out of here. I feel trapped and I am miserable. My only happiness is CeCe. I can't wait be near her and have a life a way from here and get a job and live on my own again. I am just ready to live my own life.  I washed the dishes today. i got tired of seeing knats flying around. The kitchen is still a mess. I guess it will stay that way until I finally give in and clean it. That's how it has been going ever since I moved in. I leave for a few days and the whole house gets destroyed. I swear I do not understand it at all. My honey told me not to clean their mess so I haven't..except the dishes. But I haven't did anything else. I have to take Aunt Gail to the dr. tomorrow. She is in severe pain with her gallbladder. I do believe it is time for it to come out so she doesn't hurt anymore. I'm tired of seeing her in pain. Well I am gonna go for now but not forever. My hands are hurting..Fucking carpal tunnel bullshit. I love you baby!