Nerves are shot!!!

I just got home from Paulas. I had to go over there and calm Daniel down. Him and Paula were fighting. So many harsh things were said. I don't know what is going to happen between them two. They just can't get along and Daniel has so much anger built up. Some reason I always end up in it..I guess I do that to myself...but thats all fixen to stop because I can't handle all the fighting. My nerves are too bad for all this bullshit. I miss my sweetheart. She has been on my mind alot today. I miss her touch, smile, laugh, kiss...everything. I can't wait to have her in my arms again. I love her with all my heart. Maybe one day I will be able to explain my love for her. I woke up this morning about 5:20 with really bad back spasms. They always take my breathe away...I guess if I hadnt of picked the big computer chair up over my head and carried it down the steps into the den i wouldnt have had them. Just hardheaded i guess...No honey I didnt tell you about it because I didn't want you to be mad at me...and I knew if I talked to you this morning you would know something was wrong...and I didn't want you mad or worrying about me. Im better now.... kinda....I love you honey....dont be mad at me please. Im gonna go for now but not forever!! I love you CeCe