HAPPY NEW YEAR

I can't believe it is already 2012...2011 was a crazy year...and it ended VERY badly. I got so mad that I threw up 3 times and then got mad again and had to leave my home and go riding around. I haven't been that mad in a long time. Im just glad I still have a certain person in my life. I care alot about her and she is a great friend. So glad I found her. She has done her best to help me through today and tonight. Thank You...I am back home now and trying to calm down. Maybe when I go to bed and wake up in a few hours everything will be better. Well somethings anyways. Michael went to bed at 7 or 7:30...HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR to me. Spending it all alone. I can't believe he went to bed and wouldn't even bring in the New Year with me. Well we have our problems but I guess they will get worked through or they won't. At this time I do not care because I have been hurt by someone else. She hurt me worse than I ever thought of hurting her. Apparently i'm a lazy ass fat ass bitch...so I was told. Well i'm not...and I hope it made her have peace to say that to me...because Karma is a real bitch. Enough about that...My pups are laying beside me asleep as they always are at this time of night. They love their momma and want to be under my ass all the time. But I gotta let them outside before long so I can go to bed. I hope I can sleep tonight with all this stuff in my head. If I don't then I will get back up and watch tv or something. I never watch tv anymore. Don't care too much for it half the time. My new years resolution is to lose 75 more lbs by the end of summer and to quit smoking within the next few weeks. I can't quit with so much drama right now. But I will quit again and begin to workout again. I have to start out slow because my back is not ready for full force just yet. Prolly just walk at first before doing my strenuous workouts. Maybe in Feb I will start all my workouts and my Biggest Loser workout. Its intense at times. But you burn a lot of calories. Life never ceases to amaze me and neither do people. Im gonna go for now but not forever!!